I want to kill myself..?

okay so i know your all going to be like (your just saying that for attention) but this is a site where your suppost to comment people to HELP them, not make them feel worse..so i need some help please..well im fifteen years old and my lifes totally went down the drain through out the past year. i lost my dad, i lost my bestfriends, we lost our home and now moved into a little one (im thankful i at least have a home), my dogs dying, i am homeschooled because the school i went to is getting sued for harrasing & diong bad things to the kids, i miss my friends, my sisters moved out, my brother graduated & is going to the military, and my main problem is that my boyfriend of a year and a half broke up with me last september because his mom never let him hangout and hes almost 17 now. i miss him like crazy & hes always on my mind, hes got a new gf now and i cant stop crying because i miss the good old times we use to have together. i lost my virginity to him and everything..i feel like im never going to get over him.. and i try to hard. i had a few new bfs since him, but it hasnt helped. i just want to die knowing that i cant be with him again. everythings going downhill and i already went to a councaler but i stopped because i dont trust them..i have o.c.d. to which is making this all worse..i just need someone to help me out? i prayed as much as i could..nothings helping..and i cant take it anymore